It is 9:50pm at night on your birth day. I am one exhausted Mommy, but you are so, so, so worth it. Today is the end of one very long day…but I wanted to get down the details of the day you were born while they were still fresh in my mind. You are the most amazing little boy, Daddy and I can't take our eyes off of you. We are so happy you are a part of our lives and we can't wait for all that you have in store for us. We love you so much!
When I woke up yesterday on February 18, I was pretty adamant to your Daddy that you were coming that very day. I just knew it. Of course, you had other plans…
After some sporadic conractions during the day, I had your Daddy take me to some stores to walk around. I really wanted to get you moving! I think it did the trick…I even had two really "good" (though they didn't feel that good of course) contractions in the aisles of Marshall's and Target. It makes me laugh to think what I looked like as I gripped the store shevles! (I had many strangers this week tell me how much I looked like I was going to "pop"). The walking paid off, and around late afternoon, the contractions were coming more and more frequent (and painful). We were so anxious for them to speed up to 5 minutes a part so we could officially head to the hospital.
We ended up checking in to the hospital around 8:30p.m. and it was the start of a very long night. I guess you thought it was nice and cozy where you were at…because you weren't wanting to meet us any earlier than you wanted to. The contractions up until this point were very painful and I felt so much relief after the epidural that was given quickly after check-in. We were looking forward to progress in the hours ahead (even hopeful for a midnight delivery) as our nurse explained what was next. Things changed rapidly when the alarms on all the machines went off and nurses came running. There was suddenly a lot of people in the room, an oxygen mask was placed on me, and they were moving me from side to side and rubbing my belly really hard to get you moving again in my belly. My body had started contracting very rapidly and strong for no apparent reason, and you were having trouble with the little available space, so your heartbeat dropped extremely low. While they tried to counteract this with medicine to get you better, my blood pressure dropped extremely low too and they couldn't find a reason for what was happening. I remember looking at your Daddy through the oxygen mask and catching his eyes that were filled with the utmost love and concern for us both. Thankfully, the nurses got both of us stabilized in the next ten minutes, but you still went back and forth between being happy and unhappy for the rest of the night.I was supposed to be resting in the dark hospital room, but instead spent the rest of the night just watching your little heartbeat on the glow of the monitor through every contraction to see how you would react.
Unfortunately, because of the medicine from the earlier scare, my body didn't want to make much
progress and the labor was taking much longer than it should. I prayed and prayed and prayed for you to be strong and for God to take care of us because you meant so much to me, your Daddy and so many others. Around 5am, the nurse started to discuss how the need for an emergency C-section was a very real possibility. I was really scared at the idea of this and your Daddy helped assure me while we waited for the doctor to arrive at the hospital and make the final decision. During this time, I prayed some more that you would move down and we could safely have you as we planned.
And my prayers came true! We finally had convinced you to make your way down. Your Daddy was such a great coach as I pushed for only about 20 minutes (something that I was so proud of as a first time Mommy) and you were out! When we heard your firstlittle cry, our hearts were so relieved and filled with so much love for you. You were so perfect in every way.
I have enjoyed this day so much. I loved watching your Daddy cart you around in your hospital bassinet. He just loves to talk to you and hold you. I love watching him interact with you as he changes your diaper or swaddles you up. He is such a good husband to your Mommy and has taken care of me so well. You have been born into such a loving family and we can't wait to spend the rest of our lives with you. We are so very blessed and honored to be your parents.
All my love,